THE PH.D. GRIND
A Ph.D. Student Memoir
Philip J. Guo
philip@pgbovine.net
http://www.pgbovine.net/PhD-memoir.htm
Current release: July 16, 2012
Original release: June 29, 2012
To everyone who aspires to create.
Contents
Prologue
Year One: Downfall
Year Two: Inception
Year Three: Relapse
Intermission
Year Four: Reboot
Year Five: Production
Year Six: Endgame
Epilogue
Afterword
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Preface
This book chronicles my six years of working towards a Ph.D. in com-
puter science at Stanford University from 2006 to 2012. A diverse
variety of people can benefit from reading it, including:
• undergraduates who might be interested in pursuing a Ph.D.,
• current Ph.D. students who are seeking guidance or inspiration,
• professors who want to better understand Ph.D. students,
• employers who hire and manage people with Ph.D. degrees,
• professionals working in any creative or competitive field where
self-driven initiative is crucial,
• and educated adults (or precocious kids) who are curious about
how academic research is produced.
The Ph.D. Grind differs from existing Ph.D.-related writings due
to its unique format, timeliness, and tone:
Format – The Ph.D. Grind is a memoir for a general educated
audience, not a “how-to guide” for current Ph.D. students. Although
Ph.D. students can glean lessons from my experiences, my goal is
not to explicitly provide advice. There are plenty of how-to guides
and advice columns for Ph.D. students, and I am not interested in
contributing to the fray. These articles are filled with generalities
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such as “be persistent” and “make some progress every day,” but an
advantage of the memoir format is that I can be concrete and detailed
when telling my own story.
Timeliness – I wrote The Ph.D. Grind immediately after finish-
ing my Ph.D., which is the ideal time for such a memoir. In contrast,
current Ph.D. students cannot reflect on the entirety of their experi-
ences like I can, and senior researchers who attempt to reflect back on
their Ph.D. years might suffer from selective hindsight.
Tone – Although it’s impossible to be unbiased, I try to maintain a
balanced tone throughout The Ph.D. Grind. In contrast, many people
who write Ph.D.-related articles, books, or comics are either:
• successful professors or research scientists who pontificate stately
advice, adopting the tone of “grad school is tough, but it’s a
delectable intellectual journey that you should enjoy and make
the most of . . . because I sure did! ”
• or bitter Ph.D. graduates/dropouts who have been traumatized
by their experiences, adopting a melodramatic, disillusioned,
self-loathing tone of “ahhh my world was a living hell, what did
I do with my life?!? ”
Stately advice can motivate some students, and bitter whining
might help distressed students to commiserate, but a general audi-
ence will probably not be receptive to either extreme.
Finally, before I begin my story, I want to emphasize that there is a
great deal of diversity in Ph.D. student experiences depending on one’s
school, department, field of study, and funding situation. I feel very
fortunate that I have been granted so much freedom and autonomy
throughout my Ph.D. years; I know students who have experienced
far more restrictions. My story is only a single data point, so what
I present might not generalize. However, I will try my best to avoid
being overly specific. Happy reading!
Philip Guo, June 2012